Sorry for the silence in almost a month. Real life got in the way.
Good new is; we’re at the home stretch before “Always Been Mine” goes into publication. I’m in the middle of final tweaking and proof reading and I’m targeting a date in December with a new release price of 99 cents for a week. This is in appreciation to everyone who’ve read my previous work and who are loyally anticipating each of my books.
As with each book, writing this one has been a journey. I’ve always wanted my characters to be strong and badass, but I realized it was more rewarding to explore their vulnerabilities as well.
Gabe and Beatrice’s path back to each other is not an easy one. There are too many internal and outside forces stacked against them, but there is no question in my mind that they are perfect for each other. I hope I am able to convey this sentiment at the end of the book.
This book is a touch darker than my previous offerings, and I understand if it’s not for everyone. I have to remain true to my vision of my characters, and that means taking some risks outside what I normally write.
It turns out some stories like this are more common than you think because usually a perp is amped up on drugs and pumped so full of adrenalin, they’re unnaturally strong and don’t feel pain.
Anyway, this reminded me of the movie WANTED with Angelina Jolie. This movie was about assassins who could perform superhuman tasks because they could produce excessive adrenalin when stressed.
So I thought what if the adrenalin surge was drug induced instead of natural. Surely it’s not far-fetched with the CIA given its secretive programs. 😉
There’s also the case of military amphetamine. This drug is to battle fatigue, it is called the “go-pill” and is used to keep pilots alert and sharp-eyed.The side-effect is the inability to sleep so they’re issued a “no-go pill” afterward to help them sleep. Yes, it’s kind of whacked, which is why the practice is under fire because of an accident. But that’s a whole other story.
This was a stroke of luck. I’ve always had a fondness for Berserker legends. William Wallace (Braveheart) was a rumored berserker. I really wanted to use the name but wanted to make sure it was appropriate at least. This was what I found out.
Berserkers were Norse warriors who are primarily reported in the Old Norse literature to have fought in a nearly uncontrollable, trance-like fury, a characteristic which later gave rise to the English word berserk. Berserkers are attested to in numerous Old Norse sources. Most historians believe that berserkers worked themselves into a rage before battle, but some think that they might have consumed drugged foods. Some scholars believe certain examples of berserker rage to have been induced voluntarily by the consumption of drugs such as the hallucinogenic mushroom Amanita muscaria or massive amounts of alcohol.
Just finished 5 chapters of rough draft of Always book#2. Gabe is a hot mess. 🙂
Now that “It’s Always Been You” has been out for a few weeks, I’ve been getting questions about Caitlin and her past. I’ll spoiler it below. If you have not read the book, you probably shouldn’t read past the spoiler lines.
It’s been brought up in passing in the book. Now that I’ve seen some questions, in hindsight, I probably should have written more to explain this part.
In the rolling car meeting between Porter and Travis, Porter said specter agents are recruited at a young age from foster homes. This is so they have no link to a past, no identity at all. They’re “ghosts.” I guess with this in mind, I’ve projected on Caitlin into acceptance that she was raised in the CIA to have no identity, no past, no real friends or family except fellow specter agents who also, do not, technically exist.
Her life with Travis was the only one that was real, yet was still a lie in itself. This was something Travis had to accept and is the main message of the book. Travis LOVED Caitlin unconditionally, he will ALWAYS love her no matter what.
Caitlin can’t dig into her past because everything to do with her past is classified even Porter said he couldn’t divulge much about the specter agent program. With no memory, what can she really do? Caitlin was pragmatic enough to move forward, get everyone who wants a piece of her (except Travis once she began to trust him) off her back and move forward with the man she loves.
Thanks to everyone who has read my new book “It’s Always Been You.”
Thank you for the awesome reviews! Many times I almost wanted to leave a comment on the review because I was so thrilled how the review captured exactly how I wanted the book to be perceived. But as a reader myself, I feel a review is really for another reader to make an informed decision whether to read a book or not. So I controlled my twitchy fingers and decided to thank everyone in this blog post. 🙂
I know the book didn’t work for some; I know my writing style is not for everyone.
I’m so excited to start working on Gabe and Bee’s story. The plot is developing nicely and there’s nothing more exciting than to see connections snap into place.
I’m finding that Travis and Caitlin’s characters were easier to write than our next couple. I’m not sure if you all noticed in book #1, but Bee doesn’t fit the “self-sacrificing, goody-two-shoes” mold. I discussed this with my friend about how Bee’s character may not be entirely likable. She flat out told me: “You don’t have to make her likable.”
Which means I’m going to have fun with her character. It’s always a challenge to make the character stay true to who she is but still have that one redeemable quality that firmly puts her on the heroine column.
This reminds me of the time when I wrote my alpha of all alphas—Viktor Baran—his book is Smoke and Shadows. He is cold, calculating, ruthless. How the hell can I make that man say “I love you.” It took some work and some friends here on Goodreads saw my status updates when I was drowning myself in a bottle of wine because Viktor was being such a pain in the ass to write. But that man—he’s the guy I’m gonna stick to in a zombie apocalypse. He may be terrifying to contemplate having as a book boyfriend, but he’s such a badass; one reviewer said he has enough badass in him to go around the world twice! 🙂
Okay, back to Bee. I foresee some frustrated status updates here on Goodreads. Gabe, well, for those who’ve read the opening scene let me tell you, I’m cackling like a vindictive witch here. He’s got a lot of groveling to do—the alpha way of course.
My husband and I were laughing when my book made #2 on Amazon’s hot new releases for military thrillers. It’s so funny to see this sweet cover among all those testosterone-charged covers.
Before I wrote the first book in the Always series, I read a couple of non-fiction Navy SEAL accounts to gain an insight into the psyche of the planet’s greatest warriors. When we watch them in movies or television you’d think that was all Hollywood exaggeration depicting how strong and unbreakable these soldiers are. Little did I know that when it comes to the SEALs, they are nothing short but real-life superheroes.
I read Lone Survivor and watched the movie as well. It was hard. The four SEALs were outgunned and outnumbered against dozens of Taliban fighters. Riddled with bullets, and suffering from numerous fractures, their mental toughness and never-say-die spirit still took down a chunk of the enemy forces.
However it was the book FEARLESS that left an indelible mark on me. It was about the life of DEVGRU (SEAL Team 6) operator Adam Brown. He passed the SEAL Team 6 selection process one-handed and with one eye (separate incidents injured his eye and gun hand—he had to relearn to shoot with his left hand). His struggle climbing out from hitting rock bottom because of drug abuse into becoming one of the most legendary operators of DEVGRU was amazing. I always wondered how a SEAL can transform from deadly warrior to loving father and this book gave me that.
My thanks to all the men in uniform, past and present, for their service to this country. Our freedom wouldn’t be possible without their sacrifices.
Here’s an excerpt in Times about the book … Note the phrase “Naked but covered in bubbles.” 🙂
During my interview with Heath Robinson, another teammate of Adam Brown’s, I asked “How do you do it?” referring to how they transition from lethal missions—shooting and killing people—and then coming back home, sometimes just hours later. Heath answered using his friend’s horses as an analogy. “His wife and daughter have horses,” said Heath. “Nothing makes [them] happier. Well, horses are dirty animals, every weekend he puts on his waders, goes in the barn, and shovels the manure…the dirty hay…their piss. It’s not a good job, it’s miserable, but somebody has to shovel the shit so the family can enjoy what they have.”
Kelley Brown, Adam’s wife, recalled the one time she saw “that side” of her husband. He had just returned home and was relaxing in a bubble bath when a very unlucky burglar attempted to break into their house. Adam, naked but covered in bubbles, flew out of the tub and the look in his eyes was someone she did not recognize. Moments later, the intruder bolted in fear and Adam returned to being her loving husband and the adoring father of their two young children.
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